I lost my voice at fifteen, when it faded into adolescent memory.

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The voice box is a pink, slick mass through which air blows. It’s an alien with a toothless smile. When its folds, the vocal cords, work properly, they press together as we speak, mirroring humming lips. Air slips through the cords. They quake and can vibrate up to a thousand times per second. That rattled air becomes voice.

I lost my voice at fifteen. I sounded like a boy hitting puberty, as my inflections became an unpredictable mash of breaks and warbles. …

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In her new book ‘The Making of Biblical Womanhood,’ history professor Beth Allison Barr reveals centuries of women that modern leaders keep trying to erase

I was seventeen years old in 1997 and thought I might be receiving a call to the ministry. The places I felt safest were in prayer, head bowed over my Bible, or in church, considering this precious, complicated world as a gift and thanking the God who I thought gave it to us.

I even had a good role model, a witty, vibrant associate pastor who told stories that wove together her gentle humor and a faith I saw as beautiful. But as I began exploring what Christian faith might look like, I expanded out away from her curious, humble…


Local officials are spent after the pandemic year. What could make a person want to stick with it?

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I occasionally remember my last campaign slogan with the grim recognition of an accidental hex. Let’s Do More! was plastered over the website and handouts for my small town, non-partisan city council reelection. Back then, in the time before the pandemic, global shutdown, and a downhill abdication of governmental responsibility for everything from public health to confronting generational, systemic racial injustice, Let’s Do More! seemed like smart branding. I like doing. Need a volunteer, I’m there.

Oh, how naïve I was. Plucky, cheerful. Eager for more, more, more.

Last year took so much, many local leaders have little to nothing…


We clung so hard to preserving life. Now I want to fling my arms
wide and consume it with abandon.

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The post-vaccine fever and aches deep in my bones lifted just as swiftly as they came.

Last week I received my second dose of the Pfizer Covid vaccine in a convention center that was the model of efficiency: a quick phone scan check-in, masked strangers wearing reflective vests and holding orange traffic wands directed masked and socially-distanced people into a set of queues blocked off by rope and cones. There were just enough of us showing up in our time slot to populate part of one line. We got to the front in about a minute, were told which numbered…


People who identify as ‘nones,’ or nonreligious, are one of the fastest-growing groups in America

campWomen praying at an evangelical church in Oakland, California. Photo: Michelle Vignes/Gamma-Rapho/Getty Images

Deirdre Sugiuchi was five when her dad became a born-again Christian. She grew up bouncing between Mississippi churches: Baptist, Methodist, Presbyterian Church in America. (“The hardcore version,” she says.) They attended twice a day on Sundays, each Wednesday, plus any revival. She went to school at segregation academies, and had to fight with her father to be allowed to wear pants.

Sugiuchi attended a Focus on the Family-associated church camp where she was taught how to write letters to influence members of Congress. She describes her father’s version of discipline, corporal punishment during which he’d quote scripture — spare the…


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Anthea Butler explains how racism has been essential to growing the power of white evangelical Christians

Evangelicalism is having a moment of reckoning. What once seemed like a conservative, Christian way of life became so baldly entangled with President Donald Trump, and so obviously detached from its espoused morality, that many followers are now leaving their churches. Those still on the inside are trying to see a movement they still love for other reasons, more clearly. And those on the outside are trying to grasp why Christians were willing to excuse Trump’s speech and actions against women and immigrants and his easy embrace of racism.

While evangelicals defended the movement by pointing to those in their…


A new academic study looks at the shame gendered by a religious system of enforced masculinity

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In a tweet, social scientist Samuel L. Perry posed a thesis: Evangelical subculture fosters masculine insecurity, especially when it comes to a self-perception of penis size. “But how to study penis insecurity?” Perry wrote. If you tried to survey people, he thought, everyone would lie. “But NOBODY lies to Google.”

This month, Perry and Andrew L. Whitehead, sociologists from University of Oklahoma and Indiana University-Purdue University Indianapolis respectively, published a study in the Journal for the Scientific Study of Religion (JSSR) in which they found the preponderance of evangelicals in a given state consistently predicts greater numbers of Google searches…


The Christian influencer and Bible teacher has been a towering figure among evangelicals willing to criticize Trump

Living Proof Ministries, February 28, 2020. Screenshot: Living Proof Ministries

Beth Moore fills a commanding niche in women’s evangelical circles. She has nearly a million Twitter followers; she runs Living Proof Ministries, a Texas-based Bible organization for women; she has headlined sports-arena-sized conferences; and she hosts a television show.

Moore is a petite, blonde, Southern belle with an Arkadelphia, Arkansas, folksiness and a televangelist’s urgency. She’s charming, self-deprecating, and can with conviction call Satan a liar and Donald Trump an example of “gross entitlement & power.” …


The walls were closing in, the Zoom had lost its charm. After a year as a working parent, all I needed was a room of my own.

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We’re creeping toward a strange anniversary, the day in March when our governor was the first in the country to close schools, and I felt my blood pressure swelling to a pound at the back of my skull. I’m a freelance writer, and I’ve been patchworking contracts and gigs since my daughter’s birth nearly eight years ago.

Back when she was two months old, I was ready to end the maternity leave I’d given myself and discovered my planned regular writing assignment had evaporated when my editor was laid off. Once I did start landing new gigs, it felt like…


Pastors tend to the spiritual needs of their congregations. Conspiracy theories have made their jobs a lot harder.

Rep. Marjorie Taylor Greene, who identifies as Christian, has embraced QAnon conspiracy theories. Photo: Alex Edelman/AFP/Getty Images.

Vicar Derek Kubilus, a United Methodist pastor, has one of those voices — knowing but full of levity. When we attended church camp together as teenagers, I often wondered if he was telling a joke I didn’t quite understand. Today, I hear a matured version of this voice on his podcast, Cross Over Q, which offers healing for QAnon followers and family members from a Christian perspective. …

Sarah Stankorb

Sarah Stankorb is a contributor to GEN. Other works in The Washington Post, Marie Claire, Glamour, O, and The Atlantic. @sarahstankorb www.sarahstankorb.com

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